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Sun, Jan. 8th, 2006 01:21 pm

I noticed on a reecnt drive on the A127 that my favourite roadsign in the whole wide world ever, has been removed. Yes, the infamous "BADGERS!" sign is no more. The Exclamation Mark is still there but the BADGERS moniker is missing - on both sides of the road. Does this mean the badgers have moved? Did Southend Council evict them? Have they been relocated? Or maybe they've entered some kind of woodland witness relocation... whatever the fate of the badger family that has frequented that area of the A127 I, for one, will miss them.

Current Mood: disappointed disappointed
Current Music: EP on BBC-R2


Sun, Jan. 1st, 2006 03:12 pm
So it's the beginning of another New Year. Welcome 2006 - let's hope you bring much more happiness, prosperity and fun than your predecessor! To my friends, Happy New Year! To everyone else, well, the sentiment persists.

I have an idea. It's an idea I'm hoping will take off, and one which I plan to put into motion just as soon as I have some spare cash. Anyone who has seen the movie Pay It Forward with Helen Hunt, Kevin Spacey and Haley Joel Osment will know what I'm talking about. Those who haven't - well, you really should. It's the best idea for a pyramid scheme ever envisioned.

So here's the idea... add your Amazon wishlist to your Userinfo with the format:

Pay It Forward: {Link to Amazon Wishlist}

The idea is that someone on your f-list will, when they wanna feel good about something, just got a buy something off your wishlist - anonymously if they like - when you get your surprise in the mail, the idea is that you then go and buy something off someone else's wishlist for them... it's a way of sharing the wealth and spreading the love. The value of the gift is immaterial, but you might wanna make sure you've got a few cheap paperbacks on there, just so those of us with little money can feel the warmth of giving. If you're up for this, all you need to do is comment here... add the link to your userinfo, and spread the word... get others on your f-list to come here, and add a comment... c'mon guys, I feel like starting 2006 in a warm and fuzzy way!

Current Mood: optimistic optimistic
Current Music: The Shadowlands - Ryan Adams


Thu, Dec. 29th, 2005 09:57 pm
Two bits of good news: Firstly, I'm critter-free! Thanks fuck for that! The combination of Noxema and aftershave seemed to work to totally kill any adult buggers that were in there... and a quick trip to the chemist dealt with the rest. Secondly, it wasn't Adam. It was the other guy I saw before I met Adam (not the same day, I'm not *that* slutty).

Last night was good. Adam was out at a party but had to come past here on his way home, so stopped by at like 3am to pick up a spare charger for his Tom Tom. He ended up almost spending the night - cuddling and making out - it was so nice! Yay! Happy Mark! He's working nights now 'til New Year's Day so I won't hear from him much, but he left his glasses here last night so he's coming by the shop tomorrow morning to pick them up... so at least I'll get to see him briefly. And before anyone asks... we're currently "friends without boundaries" based solely on the fact that he's only 12 weeks out of a 2 year relationship and neither of us wants to go there yet... Suffice to say, I'm happy and I really like it when he's around.

That's all for now folks!

Current Mood: happy happy


Tue, Dec. 27th, 2005 01:03 am

So this afternoon I went over to Adam's (about 6pm actually) and met his family. Adam and I chatted for a few hours before I had to go to my Aunt's for some more festive family fun. It was really nice. I was, however, nervous as hell at meeting his parents - not because it was a big deal in any sort of relationship way, but because it still feels weird with the whole gay thing. Still, it all went well I think. They were having computer issues which I managed to help solve so I think that went down well with his dad. His mum is nice - she seems very friendly and I managed to make them laugh a few times. I'm quite good at that.. it's one of my good people skills. Thankfully.

So Adam and I are getting on well. I dread to think what my mobile bill is going to be this month since we've sent about 400 txt messages to each other since we met last week. And it's still going strong... everything seems to be going ok. He appears to be pretty sorted; good career, nice family, head screwed on right. I am wary of his recent(ish) break-up which is why I'm taking things very slowly. He was with this guy for two years and they broke up about 10 weeks ago when said ex- decided to bounce Adam around the living room for 20 minutes. Suffice to say, Adam currently has no interest in getting back with the ex- but I know how these things are so I'm keeping my emotional distance just in case.

We're meeting again tomorrow to go shopping since I got some Lakeside vouchers for Christmas. That means I can at least spend a little money on myself before putting my nose back to the grindstone. It also means I'll get to spend some more time with Adam... which I will like a lot :)

In other news, which I don't quite know how to deal with, I seem to have developed a slight sexually transmitted problem. It's freaking me out and I feel like utter crap, and it can only have possibly come from two people - one of which is Adam - but I don't know what to do about it. Obviously I'm taking care of it medically (it's nothing too serious people, so don't worry - it's more... itchy and inconvenient...) but suffice to say I feel dirty and betrayed, and really quite sick to my stomach about it. I kinda wanna cry now... but I won't - I'll try to be practical and remember it's one of the most common STIs in the world and it's easily treated, and even babies can get it... so I'll try not to freak out.. but I mean, really, ewwwww!!

Current Mood: happy and grossed out


Sun, Dec. 25th, 2005 01:32 pm

Just to solidify my membership I got the following gifts for Christmas:

** Barbra Streisand: Guilty Too (aka Guilty Pleasures in the US)
** The Wizard of Oz 2 Disc DVD with musical cover that plays 'We're Off To See The Wizard'

So yeah... all I need is "A Very Ru-Paul Christmas" and I think I'd have out-camped Danny LaRue!

I also got (finally) the full box set of Lord of the Rings, Catherine Tate Show, Series 1, Little Britain, Series 2 and my 2006 Dilbert Calendar. My Mum also paid my deposit on my car insurance... which was nice.

I feel like crap because financials have prevented me from buying anything at all. I can't even afford to buy myself lunch! But I'll make up for it next year...

Current Mood: sorta festive
Current Music: Without Your Love - Barbra Streisand


Sun, Dec. 25th, 2005 01:19 am

Yeah, I know - it's been forever since I updated here. Yes, I posted about the whole Wicked thing, but that wasn't really an update so here we go.

So that's the updateCollapse )

I just wanna wish all my friends the best Christmas and an even better New Year! You all rock, and I love you. You are often my reason and my sanity - the answer to my madness and the rocks to which I weigh my anchor. Without you I would be less. You all know who you are!

...and to all, a Good Night!

Current Mood: happy happy


Sun, Dec. 18th, 2005 04:11 pm

Look.. Look Look Look!!

Current Mood: ecstatic ecstatic


Sun, Nov. 27th, 2005 10:55 am
I have a new icon. Fuck Yeah!

Current Mood: tired tired


Sat, Nov. 19th, 2005 12:53 am

Typical. I just got home from a night out seeing Jimmy Carr (a comedian) and something happens to me for the first time ever, and I'm all confused (not to mention kicking myself repeatedly *facepalm*) and there's no-one online to talk about it.

So, I'm on the train waiting for my brother and his friend to come back from finding a toilet and a girl comes up and asks if she can sit down. I look around quickly and see that there are loads of empty chairs, but figure, well, what can you say? So I said, "Sure." Anyway, we start talking... she asked if I had a good night, and I said I did 'cause I'd just been to see Jimmy Carr... and she said she'd just been to see Harry Potter... and we start talking.

We pretty much continue talking all the way from waiting for the train to pull out until my stop. We exchanged details (names, occupations, locales etc.,) and I told her about my favourite places to eat in Toronto 'cause she's going there in April (or considering it at least) and all that kinda stuff... she even gets out a card from her handbag and writes down the names of my suggestions.

Now, those of you who are normal are probably screaming at my total obliviousness here... As indeed my brother's friend did when we got off the train. Apparently, short of actually asking me for my number, she was chatting me up. She was cute, and intelligent (she's a genetic counsellor) and we had lots to talk about seemingly. I feel so stupid 'cause it never occured to me to give her my number (even though I did blurt out my email address).

So the one time someone kinda hits on me, I'm totally oblivious to it. So we'll see if she emails me I guess.

I know what you're all thinking - but she's a girl! Yeah, I know. But we had a really nice conversation, and she's cute, and I'm still not entirely sure if I'm totally into boys or not... so if we went out on a dates or something, it couldn't hurt, right? IF she emails me...

ETA: 1:30am... Google is a scary thing. One quick search and I've already found her email address... which I've kinda used to send her an email... am I mad?

Current Mood: confused confused


Tue, Nov. 1st, 2005 12:07 am

...so I deliberately missed Hallowe'en this year because I got too depressed that not once have I seen it spelled correctly. I know language is a living, evolving thing, but please, it's one freaking apostrophe - you'd think people could remember it.

Anyway, I hope you all had a Happy Hallowe'en. I spent it painting, getting emulsion in my hair, and singing.. loudly.. and not caring.

mybrokennight arrives on Wednesday! Yay!

Current Mood: tired tired


Fri, Oct. 28th, 2005 01:35 pm

Isn't this just darling!


Fri, Oct. 21st, 2005 12:51 pm

I was just reading my flist and mybrokennight reminded me of something I'd been meaning to check on... so... imagine my frustration:

seeing this

and then seeing this

What a complete set of bastards, ya!

Current Mood: pissed off pissed off


Fri, Sep. 30th, 2005 11:01 am

I found this kind funny...Collapse )

Current Mood: amused amused


Thu, Sep. 29th, 2005 10:48 pm

My dentist feeling it necessary to show me how to floss. Like, seriously.. with a mirror and everything!

Current Mood: embarrassed embarrassed


Mon, Sep. 26th, 2005 03:24 pm

Huge Thanks and Much Kudos goes to muruch for my fabulously sexy, new lj layout. I've had to resort to using Lochjournal to write this post because I kept getting distracted by the total yum-factor of it all... those of you who know me well, will know my little Justin obsession.. it's a sickness, we all know that.. but omfg... look at him!! fjksql;ad...!

Again, MASSIVE THANKS TO muruch -- without her, my LJ would still be the huge mess I made it into the other day... *hugs*

Current Mood: horny horny


Sat, Sep. 24th, 2005 11:24 pm
When I was at (high)school, I had a massive crush on this girl called Emma. I was a little obsessed with her, and in true geeky teenage fashion, I believe she was the girl I was destined to spend the rest of my life with. Clearly, I was mistaken. Listening to this song, I was suddenly struck by a very odd realisation. This song, Stay by Lisa Loeb was a hit in the 90s in the UK. I first heard it when my best friend Peter played it for me. He bought the single after seeing it on MTV. He said that I should listen to it because the singer, Lisa, looked like Emma. He was convinced they looked alike, but I could never really see it. Now, looking back, I sort of can.

Here's the weird thing. Lisa Loeb has never been a huge commercial success in the UK so her fans are someone devoted. I'd forgotten all about Lisa Loeb after highschool and went on my merry way. Then, when I met the ex-gf, I found she was a huge Lisa Loeb fan... huge! She also had a very strong physical resemblence to the singer. In fact, she was mistaken for her on a few occasions. The weird part of this story is that I find it very odd I should be so obsessed with girls who both have a resemblence to the same person. Purely by accident. And yet both times I felt I was destined to be with them for the rest of my life. Weird.

Current Mood: introspective
Current Music: Stay - Lisa Loeb


Thu, Sep. 22nd, 2005 06:22 pm

Well, why don't you go stroke my ego!Collapse )

Current Mood: bored bored


Tue, Sep. 13th, 2005 01:08 pm
As the speech continued, Ian began to fully understand what the American people had done.Collapse )


Mon, Sep. 12th, 2005 08:04 pm


Wed, Sep. 7th, 2005 02:56 am

I met a boy today. He's cute, and sweet, and young. 17. He's a good kisser. We had coffee, (well I did) and we talked, and we walked and we shopped for monkeys. We kissed, a lot, and we talked some more. He's very sweet. I'm going to see him again. I will let you know how it goes. He has a proper name. His name is Joe.

Current Mood: good good


Sat, Aug. 27th, 2005 05:28 pm
So I finally got the keys to my shop. It's only taken two years and a significant number of premature grey hairs, but hey, I have the keys. Now the really hard work starts. I have to get all the work and shopfitting done. The electrics need looking at 'cause with the number of cables and electrical gizmos that are in this shop, it looks like I'm powering the whole town centre.

I got the keys on Thursday, finally. I didn't get the keys to the flat though, 'cause they had been misplaced and no-one knew quite who had them. Finally, after threatening to get a locksmith to change the locks and bill the outgoing tennants, I got the flat keys in the post this morning. I haven't been over there yet - I just had a shower and I'm going over there to have a look around when I've finished writing this.

It's somewhat anticlimactic actually. Everyone is away... and I have noone with whom to share this fairly momentous occasion. Oh well, such is life. I know that the flat is unfurnished. It needs a washing machine, a cooker, and beds. That'll be the first priority... although from what I've seen through the windows, I need to get some nice neutral paint and do an Anne Maurice on the whole thing! It does have a nice laminate floor in the living room though... so that's something.

Random Question for my Friends: Do I come across as difficult to understand? Are you always unsure about what I'm trying to say? Or do you find me pretty plain-speaking? I only ask 'cause there's someone who just always seems to take everything I say as if I'm being obtuse, condescending, self-righteous or some combination of the three. So tell me - is it me? am I really that obnoxious? Or is it just this one person who doesn't 'get' me?

The amount of work that needs to be done on the shop is kinda bugging me. It's nagging away at me and I'm worried I'm not going to get it done quickly enough, and that it's going to be too expensive -- all that kinda stuff. I'm sure this is normal and will pass once we actually start getting stuff done in there, but still, I hate being kept up at night worrying about this kinda stuff.

I finished The Time Traveller's Wife last night. What a book! What a concept! I really enjoyed it. I would have finished it earlier but I've had a few late nights doing other stuff lately so didn't get to read in bed as I have been lately. It was such a different concept for a book though.. really great. I know some people have had trouble getting into it, getting confused - which I can totally understand. For me, the trick to getting past that was just thinking about the dates for a second.. once you figure out how to tell where and when Henry is, the rest kinda falls into place. There's a reason Niffenegger gives Henry's and Claire's ages, people! The other fun thing is recognising all the places in Chicago that are references in the book... makes it so much more vivid. Especially the Army Surplus Store on Belmot. Having been in there a shitload of times, I was able to totally see that whole scene.. so cool! If you're reading this mybrokennight, take note! Good book!

I'm gonna start We Need To Talk About Kevin in the next day or so. I bought it at Tesco's late one night when I had to drive my mum down their at 1am 'cause she'd forgotten to buy trifle sponges and jelly (don't ask!) I picked it up and put it in the trolley and told her to read it when she was on holiday. She did. She said it was great. So it's next on my list. I will keep you posted.

Well, that's it for now... outties!

Current Mood: okay okay
Current Music: "Barcelona", from Company


Tue, Aug. 16th, 2005 12:40 am

I had to go to my cousin's today to drop off her birthday present. My parents are on holiday, and my cousin goes on holiday before they get back so although she's away for her birthday, my mum isn't around to take it to her. So I said I'd do it. I didn't mind because I had some other stuff for my cousin too.. that I'd brought back from my last trip to Chicago. So, I loaded up the car with all the crap (including a book that my aunt wanted to borrow, and the airplay thing for my other cousin who asked me to buy it for him while I was in the US) and I set off.. singing my little heart out to the "Wicked" soundtrack (I'm so gay!)... anyway... I got to my cousin's house, parked the car, opened the passenger door to get all the stuff and realised I'd forgotten to pick up the birthday present.

I am an idiot. I am an idiot. I am an idiot.

Current Mood: stupid


Sun, Aug. 14th, 2005 05:49 pm
Ok, so yesterday I finished "Wicked - The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West" and whilst I enjoyed the novel, I have to say that the differences between it and the storyline of the musical are quite substantial and I'm pretty sure I prefer the musical's storyline. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed the book -- even if it wasn't an easy read -- but having seen the musical, I was somewhat disappointed that the musical had a better story than the novel. I understand why there are differences, and why the show needed to be different, it was just a surprise. Having read the novel, I've changed my opinion... one could feasibly read the novel and still have a thoroughly enjoyable experience at the show. So read away my pretties... and your little dog too!

Current Music: No Good Deed - Idina Menzel


Fri, Aug. 12th, 2005 03:00 pm

The sudden realisation that I would sleep with both Dick and Dom, either individually or together has me a little worried.

Clearly, I have too much time on my hands today.

Current Mood: horny horny


Tue, Aug. 9th, 2005 11:54 am

I had a weird dream last night. violentfires had made me some icons for my lj, but they were little animated .gif files taken of me when I was clearly drunk and running around naked. I distinctly remember one that showed me running through a tunnel at night, naked, for a bet. You can only see me from behind, but I'm naked and my bits were kinda showing through from behind... in the dream, it was really amusing but also quite embarrassing. Ironically, the dream me had a pretty fit body... clearly, this was a dream.

Current Mood: bemused


Tue, Aug. 9th, 2005 11:52 am

It made me think of mybrokennight when I saw it, 'cause he looks like "that cocksucker, Master Shake". Apparently, I'm lame.


Current Mood: amused amused


Thu, Aug. 4th, 2005 11:00 pm

Kate Winslet is my new comedy hero.

That is all.

Current Mood: laughing uncontrollably


Wed, Aug. 3rd, 2005 03:14 pm
I just got back from seeing my bank manager about sorting out my fading finances. He suggested refinancing my business loan which should give me an extra eight grand. Also, he's going to temporarily increase my overdraft so that I can pay the landlord and solicitors the £8k they want before they'll give me the keys to the shop/flat. That should all be happening in the next couple of days. Anyone wanna share a flat with me? Own room? Reasonable rent? Free parking? Anyone?? Helloooo?

Current Mood: optimistic optimistic


Mon, Aug. 1st, 2005 05:06 pm

From the Lakeside Shopping Centre website -- and also the nearest location with a Starbucks...

"Wi-Fi: Free wireless connectivity is available throughout the centre."

Oh dear... oh dear, oh dear, oh dear... Lakeside just got better! Gah!

Current Mood: amazed


Wed, Jul. 27th, 2005 06:24 am

I was thinking about you today. I hope you're well. I still think about you and kick myself in the shins when I think about what happened. If you still read this, can we go have coffee sometime?