So in an attempt to avoid the impending doom that is my 30th birthday, I have decided to go to Chicago for the week. Helped primarily by the fact that flights are cheap at the moment, and my parents have agreed to pay for at least some of it as my birthday present. It will be so good to see mybrokennight
again! And anyone else that wants to be around that weekend, in Chicago, should, well, do something about it! My birthday isn't until the Monday but pffft, I'm not that jazzed about celebrating it anyway so does it really matter what day I do it on?
I've been ill this past week with the recidivist tonsillitis. Of course, because my stupid job doesn't pay sick pay I've been going into work everyday, despite temperatures of, probably 102 degrees. It wasn't fun. Thankfully, they let me go home early on Thursday and by Friday I was feeling much better, but still, I really shouldn't have been in work but I can't afford to lose the money by calling in sick. Stupid life.
I got a Get Well Soon card from A. today - which was sweet. A bit of a mind-fuck, but sweet nonetheless. We've not seen much of each other lately - primarily because I've been seeing a guy called Jack, and also because I'm 90% over it. I've actually accepted that he doesn't want me in that capacity, and well, fuck him then. It's his loss 'cause I'm wonderful - ha! I've been invited over to A's for dinner - by his mum - so that's where I'm off to tonight. It'll be the first time I've seen him in about three/four weeks, so that will be interesting.
Jack is a nice guy. He's totally hot and nearly my perfect type - physically - but I dunno, I just don't think we have enough in common. There's too much potential conflict there to make it work as anything more than what it is at the moment - which is a shame 'cause he seems to really like me. I dunno, it might have worked out if I'd given it a bit more effort but I just don't feel 'it' - whatever 'it' is. He's moving next week too - only to East London, but it's far enough to make it cost prohibitive for me to see him enough, and he doesn't drive which makes it even more difficult. I'm not the sort of guy that would shy away from making an effort to see someone, but with my financial resources being so very low anyway, it just seems like all the fates are conspiring against this, so who am I to argue?
I've volunteered with The Samaritans. I went for the information evening a few weeks ago, and on Monday night I'm going for the selection evening. I don't know exactly what that entails - probably some sort of interview - but in my mind I'm imagining a Blind Date type game-show affair... well it made me laugh! I've nixed the whole Mental Health Nursing thing primarily 'cause it's too expensive given that I would have to stop work for two years, and I have things to pay for - like my car - and well, it's not really what I want. It would be a sideways move and although it would be in the right field, it's not the right way to get into what I want to do. Instead, I've decided to keep working where I am - they have promised to increase my salary - and take a part-time counselling course and get into it that way. The courses start in September but I'm hoping my degree will allow me to skip a couple of the more basic courses and jump right into something stimulating. But that's a phonecall I have to make soon...